Amaretto Diaries: Feminist Emergencies and Those I Once Admired

Being a feminist is something I have learned over the last 25 or so years. It's a noun, a verb, an adjective.

Feminism is for life. It's not something you can just wash off, like a removable tattoo. Once you start down that rabbit hole, and you're committed to understanding, that's it.

I've admired so many people in my life that have turned out to be shit upon closer examination, and although I wish no ill will towards any feminist that's ever been in my circle on the tubez, I will say that I'm having one of those 'wakeup' moments in my feminist life.

I'm realizing that our once unified front can be, and was, decimated by more than Binh and Ross. More than summersonset and her persistent flagging on YouTube, on BlipTV and on TinyPic. And more than one feminist has, whether knowingly or not, drawn a line in the once perfect beach sand.

You'll usually get two responses from me about a single event. The first one is my emotional gut reaction. The second is my deeper emotional and cognitive process. Neither should be given preference over the other, since they are both equally valid.

As each day passes, I can see the pixels tightening, showing me the crystal clear image I've secretly known was there all along.

Pixie,
First, your group started out by exclusion; a conscious effort to avoid any and all feminists who weren't in line with your 'standards'. Today, I saw it become what any box would become: a jail. You've confined the space so much that you lash out at feminists who you consider not befitting your boxes. I wish you no ill will but I must say my mind since I cannot be a vocal feminist on your space, nor can Nuke, or Jedi, nor Antique, nor many others who you've excluded, without getting verbally rude warnings that I am 'not welcome to expose people who are most assuredly anti-feminist.'

I'm on my way now, working to build an INCLUSIVE space.

It's up to each individual feminist to decide where they will go. I've made my decision though and whether you chose to follow me or not is up to you.

It was once a beautiful feminist landscape, and now it's a prison, with a rule book and a long stick to hit those who are 'too this' or 'too that.'

Feminism is about freedom and choice and not confining spaces and boxes.

I choose no boxes, to fill in no lines and to radically change. Not just to change myself but to make a space where all can be free to grow, organically.

Amaretto Diaries: Honesty & The Turtle Shells We Feminists Wear

BEFORE, you watch the video you must read this.

I'm happy that a young woman who is budding into feminism has taken an interest. This would be my chica, JuiceyAngel.

Part of this video is for young feminists on YouTube who want to get active with us and who might think we're not really paying much mind to them. I explain why this can be difficult and I've got a solution, which I'm going to implement, and when I do, I'm going to make a grand entrance onto YouTube and tell you all where our HOUSE is so you can join.

ON RUNNING FEMINISTUBE:

Most of you know that FT is no longer. Along with destroying my account they also destroyed my group. No panicking. I'm making a new one BUT I've noticed that another group for feminists has been made. I don't mind that a new group was made but I take issue with it as you'll see in the video.

I have NO QUALMS with those who have gone on to lead. My video, that is no longer available, about leadership was one where I state explicity that the goal of being a leader is to create MORE leaders. So I'm proud I influenced others within FT to become their own creatrix's and leaders but I'm still a bit sad.

I stuck my arse out in the wind for a feminist cause and look where it got me eh? No matter. I'd do it again, cuz I'm determined like that.

I'm a little drunk in this video, just a little, but the message is the same albeit a bit 'slower' than usual.

The Antibroadcast Channel on YouTube

When are we going to unite and say enough is enough? If they can take all these channels down, what's going to stop them from taking yours down when they feel like it.

This is the element of fear. Now I have friends who won't even mirror my vids because they're afraid of a strike. Is this YOU in the Tube? No. My voice has been silenced as have many others.

I truly think we can have our own damn site with our own bandwidth and our own ad revenue. I really think this can be done.

I want to start a BB so we can talk about our options. If there is anyone out there who would help us start our OWN video site then let us know.

Yes, it's going to cost money but if we all join together we'll never have to worry about Google/NONYOUtube stepping all over our freedom of speech ever again.