Bring On The Noise

Just got home from work. I had a raving lunatic of a customer tonight. She tried stealing from the store and so I called security to stand at both exits. Legally we cannot search someone who is still in the store, even if we know they have stolen. We have to wait for them to exit the store in order for the search to take place.

So she pocketed some high end makeup. I called security. They took their positions and when she walked out, they asked to to empty her pockets. They asked me what I saw her steal and I told them 'eyeshadow.' She emptied her pockets, swearing at everyone, and there was nothing in them. What she had done was put the merchandise down her pants and since both guards were male they were unable to strip search her.

She threw a bottle at them and ran out.

An hour later she came back with something she did buy and started screaming at me that she wanted my full name so she could sue me. I fucking laughed my ass off. We get these kinds of people pretty regularly and they never are allowed to take names. So she returned her one item, made a scene and left.

The law is a tricky thing. There's the letter of the law and the spirit of the law. I once read a great book by Alan Dershowitz on the trial of OJ Simpson and the reasons why he was acquitted. It was a fantastic book about the way the law actually works.

In the case of OJ, it was the fact that there was sufficient doubt. Although we know that the blood evidence alone is a conviction, the defense was able to raise just enough doubt about the gloves and the timeline. The defense also pulled the highly charged emotional plea which involved Mark Furhman's racism.

The problem here is that the truth can be covered up with appeals to emotion and other such nonsense.

Currently, I am dealing with this. The truth is being ridden with emotional appeals and the facts are getting lost. People are trying to find things to add into the mix so the cognitive dissonance resolves for them.

In fact, there's an assertion that I am somehow pals with Shangi. This is deliberate subterfuge to distract from the ACTUAL information presented. Also, there's the missing comments I supposedly erased. Where is that evidence? Where is the evidence that, on this video I made laughing at the drama master JonDorn, I spoke to Shangi in such a way that makes me his pal?

So if I make ANY comment to this person I suddenly become his friend? Of course not. That's ludicrous.

When someone is lying they try to push things from the past into it to give it more emotional appeal. It doesn't matter that there was no issues with it then. Also, people will immediately condemn instead of asking me what's going on. I find that to be very amazing. It goes to show me that people are more concerned with asserting their own goals in another situation instead of actually looking at the present situation and the facts involved. This is akin to bringing Mark Furhman into the OJ Simpson trial about a movie script that has nothing to do with the actual case. It's a lie, a distraction.

The one thing that's good about this situation is that I now know who my friends are. This is the one positive thing to come from this.

Honestly, I'm too tired to deal with this nonsense. I have other friends who actually ASK me what's going on and not make assumptions. I've been completely honest. I have nothing to hide.

If people want to believe the lies and the subterfuge then so be it. I'm cleaning myself of this shitfest and moving on. I am confident that if ALL the documents are posted by those that lie and manipulate for their own personal issues, it will show the reality.

Some want to play cognitive dissonance and love the drama for the drama's sake. Well, enjoy because I DO stand behind my principles. I only ask, like Diwataman says, that you present things to back up the twisted shit that's being said. It's easy to character assassinate someone and make stupid voices on videos as if I was saying something in a certain way. That's the cowardly way, the manipulative way. Putting the facts out there for the people to decide for themselves is the hardest road and the high road. The truth is out there. Be willing to find it.

No More Gaslighting. Just Stop.

HONESTY:

When Divinity first came to YouTube, she got really close to me, really fast. I thought she was getting close to me to befriend me, but within a couple weeks her agenda was clear. She wanted me off of YouTube and it was evident that she was a bully. I wish I still had that private video from my Dominatrix1969 account where I begged Divinity to stop bullying me and hurting me. However, when I thought she was a good person and I was having a problem with my girlfriend and thought my girlfriend was in danger, I GAVE Divinity my girlfriend's number to call her because my girlfriend also lives in Texas. It wasn't some devious plot to get her number.

So Divinity HAS a number to contact my girlfriend and her son. That's the male that answered the phone.

I find it hilarious that people will admit to me having a girlfriend on YouTube when it suits their purpose and then gaslight me when it doesn't.

Since then,  I have proven that Ms Espejismo IS indeed my girlfriend and posted the link to her blog, which she began in 2008 (FAR before Divinity came on YouTube), and the pro-industry folks, over the last few days, have gone over there and harassed her, telling her she's not really a Native American, nor does she speak Spanish and all kinds of other crap.

So you see the lies and the gaslighting when it suits their agenda in order to detract from the fact that Divinity is a liar and a bully who will do ANYTHING to save face.

Has she admitted the FACT that she created an imposter account to suck up to radical feminists in order to get personal and private information from them? No. Has she admitted to ANY wrong doing? No. Will she ever admit that her entire purpose was to get close enough to me in order to then bully the FUCK out of me? No.

This is the TRUTH. If you people still want to gaslight and only use information when it SUITS you then go right ahead. I've been done with you people for months but yet you can't seem to be adults and leave me be.

I believe in karma. I believe in truth. I know that someday, someone else, ALONG with DreamedBlue, will have a conscience and spill more truth.

If you haven't already seen dreamedblue's admission that that imposter account was indeed Divinity's and that the pro-industry people have made many many other troll accounts in order to harass and stalk my friends and fellow feminists, then you should watch it.




I have no plans of ever engaging these folks who have done nothing but intimidate, bully, stalk and harass myself and others. I blocked them months ago and THIS is what started Divinity on her path to NOT let it lie. So she made an imposter account, pretending to be a teenage feminist girl who was having problems in life in order to garner private and personal information out of my fellow feminist, FistfulofDicks. Divinity has nothing else to do on YouTube aside from trying to take me out and bolster her reputation even when it's blatantly clear she's a liar, which was her GOAL from the beginning. Not only to take me out but to harass me my friends.

The first attack was the 'Diana Boston Does Not Speak for Feminism' video made by Divinity wherein she tells everyone I am a wounded animal, had bad parenting, and got no attention in highschool. Basically, a way to shame me. Go to my Saelpalani account right now and tell me where I ever stooped to the level of psychoanalysing Divinity. I beg of you to search for the truth.

Admittedly, I lost my temper over Divinity's impersonation account. She was also using that account to suck up to me in order to gain my trust and then my personal information from me. She used her imposter account to snuggle up to me, fistful, rememberthediamonds and Owleyes777. She PM'ed some of us and left channel comments and comments on videos for others to complete the facade.

If it's a crime to get incredibly angry at someone doing that then I'm GUILTY. I am. I lost my temper. I was totally ok to ignore Divinity and had been ignoring her for months but that wasn't good enough for her. Hence, the imposter account to instigate.

What kind of shit do you think she would've pulled with that private information had myself and fistful exposed her? Immediately after we exposed her, she closed the account, but not before leaving silly cryptic messages to rememberthediamonds.

I admit to my anger. Like my friend Shevo said in her video, if I had allowed myself to calm down, I would've only made one video. Instead, I made three. Not 10, not 8, but three.

I also never intended to doc drop. No way. I was simply pointing out the evidence that Divinity was the creator and owner of that imposter account.

Admittedly, when a couple of my friends disagreed and thought I had given out Divinity's city. I didn't see that as doc dropping. In my mind, it was the same thing as saying 'I'm from Vancouver.' Also, it wasn't some malicious act and most people didn't even notice it in the video until Divinity and her herd found that one little thing to divert the facts put the blame on me. It was on the screen for maybe 10 seconds while I was focused on another part of the screen.

Divinity and Binh then proceeded to try taking down my SaelPalani account by falsely flagging two videos on it. One was a response to Binh's ridiculous 'Myth of False Flagging' video and the other was the video in question.

Instead of immediately flagging me on my AuntieDiana channel when I reploaded the flagged vid, Divinity did nothing, except make videos to persuade everyone she was the real victim in all this.

Also, the video she made where she threatens me with family violence was made PRIOR to the video where she accused me of doc dropping her. She put her threats up and then removed them quickly because she knew if more people saw that video, they'd know she was just playing people. However, I managed to get a copy of that vid where we see the real Divinity. Not the calm Divinity that plays people and still won't admit to her wrongdoing irregardless of the fact that one of her own friends (dreamedblue) told the truth about her tactics and her bullshit.

Here is the video where Divinity threatens me with family violence and then calls the cyberpolice on me for 'going crazy'. I did not have that video in question where she claims I doc dropped her up. I hadn't even MADE it yet.



Guess what Divinity? I have a real life too and a real mother. Notice the jealous bullshit about me belonging to Mensa. Notice the bullying over the fact that I made a very honest post on this blog about alcoholism. My mother and stepfather are alcoholics. Admittedly, I was getting incredibly stressed by her and her friends constant bullshit on You tube and things in my real life. So I made a post and was honest about my beginning use of alcohol. So Divinity came to my blog with all her pals, and used that information to bully the fuck out of me. Everything I post on this blog is subject to her and her friends scrutinty whereby they take it to shame me with it.

I am very well aware of addiction and that's why I was HONEST on my blog about what I was going through. The first step in addiction recognition is to admit you are travelling down that road and WHY. I would like all my friends to know that since I made that blog post, exploring my real feelings, I have stopped buying alcohol and have stopped drinking completely. I did NOT want to travel down that road and I knew the potential for it to become a huge problem.

There is so much more I could explain about Divinity's bullying but it's a POSITIVE thing that she called the police. I hope they do investigate. I have NOTHING to hide. I stood up to a bully and this is the consequence. Fine, I accept the consequence.

MORE HONESTY:

I want my two friends back. I want my friend Ash back and my friend Theresa back. Theresa, when you called me a bully THAT was what hurt me. Ash, the fact that you didn't respond to my private emails and instead made a video slapping me, that hurt me. If I ever had a disagreement with you I would privately discuss it because that's what friends do. I would never publicly humiliate you. EVER.

If both of you don't see how that's hurtful then there's nothing else for me to say. Theresa, I blocked you because you were sending me HURTFUL messages. I was already down and I felt I was being kicked further. I simply was at my wits end and could not take it anymore. You are unblocked.

Ash, you were never blocked since you never responded to my private message before you made that video,  but I see that you removed me as a friend. Is that a glitch or is that truth? I tried speaking with you to tell you what I was thinking and feeling. You ignored me.

It's not about the disagreement. It's about the way it was handled by both of you that hurt me. I even acknowledged the video you made on the subject Theresa and told you it was a good video. I accept the fact that you disagreed with me but I had my reasons to hold out for the truth. A mountain was made out of a molehill re: the video in question.

And now I come to find out Theresa that you posted someone's ip address. Do you know that an ip address is like giving someone a precise address? It's a helluva lot different than just happening to have a major city on the screen for 10 seconds.

I never intended harm in my video but when Divinity would not be honest and instead took down all her videos, removed all her incriminating photobucket pictures and titles, uploaded nasty photo-shopped pictures of me on her photobucket, and acted like it was ME that was harassing her, I knew that I had to hold my ground. Right or wrong. I did hold my ground and the TRUTH came out. That's ALL I wanted. I don't care if people mirror my video. That's not the most important thing.

TRUTH IS.

Be prepared for this post to be completely mangled and distorted. I know I'm ready for it.